So- here I am. Week 3 at my new job and living in Richmond proved to be uneventful, went out and managed to run into MORE people I know and rehash the past two years of my life. My thoughts on this- "Dear College- loved you when I was there, but I'm kind of over it and would prefer you to stay where you belong, in my past. kthanksbye. <3, JB."
The social scene at my work is lacking, but it HAS potential. This is the first time in MONTHS where I haven't had a million things to do and been surrounded by so many people, so I am trying to embrace my alone time and enjoy it, because I know it will not be long before I am busy again. Plus, it gives me a great deal of time to stop and THINK and look at my life, where it has been, where it is going and the person I want to be. Trips to DC help. :)
Lots of scattered thoughts, will try to get my thoughts reorganized and come back. <3
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Limbo cool, limbo fine
So... Richmond won. I am now a resident of Richmond. Yup. Here I am. And, it's ok. I think it is exactly what I needed. It is enough "new" coupled with enough "old" and just enough of something that is all my own. I came to this revelation this past weekend after a mini trip to DC for a friend's baby shower. It wasn't until AFTER the shower and on my drive home that I recognized what a great thing this is. I am so grateful that I came to Richmond. Mostly because it is a set of "training wheels" for me in the series of moves I have planned for my life.
Well, the reason I am so thankful for this set of "training wheels" is mostly because I have a strong support group that is within driving distance. I recently found out this weekend that my main ex lied to me and wasn't loyal to a promise he made. Right now I am in the "angry" mode and know that I will get to the "heartbroken" mode, but s-word, I am so dang angry right now. Fortunately, I have decided that my self-respect and his lack of adulthood abilities do not compel me to cry because gosh darn him, he is NOT worth my tears. I'm sorry, but when you f-up 3 times and directly lie to me 3 times, you lose. And if I keep forgiving, then what will happen 10 years down the line? Dishonesty and disloyalty are not attributes I want to encourage. Not at all.
So, here I am in Richmond, making life anew with a new job, a new apartment and a newfound freedom. My singlehood is an unfamiliar accessory that I have not worn in a while, but I found it when I unpacked. So it may be old and dusty, but it is a lovely accessory.
Well, the reason I am so thankful for this set of "training wheels" is mostly because I have a strong support group that is within driving distance. I recently found out this weekend that my main ex lied to me and wasn't loyal to a promise he made. Right now I am in the "angry" mode and know that I will get to the "heartbroken" mode, but s-word, I am so dang angry right now. Fortunately, I have decided that my self-respect and his lack of adulthood abilities do not compel me to cry because gosh darn him, he is NOT worth my tears. I'm sorry, but when you f-up 3 times and directly lie to me 3 times, you lose. And if I keep forgiving, then what will happen 10 years down the line? Dishonesty and disloyalty are not attributes I want to encourage. Not at all.
So, here I am in Richmond, making life anew with a new job, a new apartment and a newfound freedom. My singlehood is an unfamiliar accessory that I have not worn in a while, but I found it when I unpacked. So it may be old and dusty, but it is a lovely accessory.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Limbo...
As I have previously mentioned- patience is not a strong virtue of mine. In fact, I am really bad at it, almost as bad as giving phone. One thing I really dislike is being forced to be patient. Right now I am in what I call "Life Limbo." I don't know where I will be 2 months from now and even more so, where I will be 5 months from now.
A little background- I am currently waiting on my assignment of where my new job-to-be will be. Originally, they wanted to place me in Richmond, RICHMOND, VIRGINIA. Needless to say, I was less than thrilled at the chance to move to Armpit, VA. So, I explained my situation to Regina (we are becoming fast biffles) and told her that I understand I signed a mobility agreement and that I have no issues moving, I just don't want to move to another location in Virginia. So, she tells me, "babe (yes, she really calls me babe), I'm going to see what I can do and talk to my supervisor." This was two weeks ago.
Don't worry, I am playing it cool and only calling every other day or so, 10-15 times a day if she doesn't answer. I'm not a pathetic, needy girl waiting around for some boy. :::cough, cough:::: Anyways, here I am just waiting in Life Limbo. Anxiously awaiting my future that shall be handed to me by Gina from West Virginia. Yup... That's my life.
A little background- I am currently waiting on my assignment of where my new job-to-be will be. Originally, they wanted to place me in Richmond, RICHMOND, VIRGINIA. Needless to say, I was less than thrilled at the chance to move to Armpit, VA. So, I explained my situation to Regina (we are becoming fast biffles) and told her that I understand I signed a mobility agreement and that I have no issues moving, I just don't want to move to another location in Virginia. So, she tells me, "babe (yes, she really calls me babe), I'm going to see what I can do and talk to my supervisor." This was two weeks ago.
Don't worry, I am playing it cool and only calling every other day or so, 10-15 times a day if she doesn't answer. I'm not a pathetic, needy girl waiting around for some boy. :::cough, cough:::: Anyways, here I am just waiting in Life Limbo. Anxiously awaiting my future that shall be handed to me by Gina from West Virginia. Yup... That's my life.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Vacation
So... It's the holidays and I am mid-way through my month long spree of Love Actually and have fully induced myself on eating every stinking piece of candy that comes my way. Hello, 4 pounds, glad we are becoming fast friends! (Just kidding, kind of)
Well we had a holiday party that turned out to be a lot of fun. We introduced everyone to BBD (baby boobie dana), had some cake and lots of drinks. More importantly, 95% of my favorite people in the DC metro area merged together and made nice. I was very happy to have everyone meet each other and like each other. It was one of the many Christmas miracles of the season. (Others including: being approved for my new job (yay), my friend's boyfriend being reassigned stations (the East Coast instead of Alaska), someone I do not like at my current job is leaving (yay again))
So... sorry for the big gaps in life. I will be back in January. I hope everyone has a blessed & lovely holiday! :)
Well we had a holiday party that turned out to be a lot of fun. We introduced everyone to BBD (baby boobie dana), had some cake and lots of drinks. More importantly, 95% of my favorite people in the DC metro area merged together and made nice. I was very happy to have everyone meet each other and like each other. It was one of the many Christmas miracles of the season. (Others including: being approved for my new job (yay), my friend's boyfriend being reassigned stations (the East Coast instead of Alaska), someone I do not like at my current job is leaving (yay again))
So... sorry for the big gaps in life. I will be back in January. I hope everyone has a blessed & lovely holiday! :)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Happiness.
It has been a long time since I have been happy. I can't quite pinpoint when I stopped being happy or even what caused it, but there was a good six months, maybe more, of unhappiness. And yesterday, Monday, November 30, 2009, I jumped into the car of my friend squealing with delight of my pink coat, the cold and even the rain. I decided that I like being happy, it's more fun.
For a short period of time, I liked blaming the city, the north, people around me, etc. Recently, I started blaming God. I was angry with Him, really angry. I even bordered on the line of being a bitter b-word. For those of you who know me, you know why. All along, I recognized that I wasn't meant to marry him. I know that, but I couldn't help but seek out reasons, wanting to know why and who and for what good could this possibly serve. I had (have) so many questions and want the answers right now. I just have to know that the one I am supposed to be with is coming as fast as he can and he will get here when he is supposed to.
This morning, I was reading my friend's blog labeled "Inspiration" under sites I visit, and her month long challenge for December is naturally, inspirational. She referenced the A-H site and the Laws of Attraction, Power, etc. I never read the books, but I did check them out at the local library while living in Norfolk and skimmed them.
Things to be grateful for:
* The toxic people in my life are gone
* I have a wonderful family and friends
* I have a job that I genuinely like and work with people I genuinely like
* I like who I am and who I am becoming
So, I'll try to remember these things and remind myself of it and think of new ones. I will not be participating in her month long challenge, but I will try to remember to be grateful and remember to be happy, because I am much more pleasant.
For a short period of time, I liked blaming the city, the north, people around me, etc. Recently, I started blaming God. I was angry with Him, really angry. I even bordered on the line of being a bitter b-word. For those of you who know me, you know why. All along, I recognized that I wasn't meant to marry him. I know that, but I couldn't help but seek out reasons, wanting to know why and who and for what good could this possibly serve. I had (have) so many questions and want the answers right now. I just have to know that the one I am supposed to be with is coming as fast as he can and he will get here when he is supposed to.
This morning, I was reading my friend's blog labeled "Inspiration" under sites I visit, and her month long challenge for December is naturally, inspirational. She referenced the A-H site and the Laws of Attraction, Power, etc. I never read the books, but I did check them out at the local library while living in Norfolk and skimmed them.
Things to be grateful for:
* The toxic people in my life are gone
* I have a wonderful family and friends
* I have a job that I genuinely like and work with people I genuinely like
* I like who I am and who I am becoming
So, I'll try to remember these things and remind myself of it and think of new ones. I will not be participating in her month long challenge, but I will try to remember to be grateful and remember to be happy, because I am much more pleasant.
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